I can remember a time when I wished for six to come. While we had waited so long to have Sid, he was not that happy, bouncing, baby boy I had imagined in all my dreams of motherhood. Instead, I had a baby who was often unhappy, crying and who; I thought, hated me. I can remember being left alone with him, wishing for the time to hurry and pass, and for him to grow-up. I would, on a daily basis, leave him with my parents..for hours or even days. The thing that saved us...moving away. I didn't have my momma and daddy to pawn my sweet little boy off on. Instead, I had to learn how to manage him myself. How to cope with him, understand him and show him that I LOVED HIM. In time, he showed me that he loved me, too! What a great gift.
Now, on this day, I wish I could take it all back. I wish he were my little baby again. He is growing up too fast, getting too big. He thinks he knows everything, and he probably does. He is the best thing that has ever happened to me. He makes me smile on days that I think I cannot. When he tells me that he loves me, even if it is just to get out out of doing studies, it melts my heart. When I go to pick him up from his class at the Y, and he sees me and starts hollering "Mama!!!" and throws himself in my arms, it is the best feeling ever. I love this sweet little boy more than anything on earth. I would gladly give up everything, just to make him happy and smile. So this is what love is all about.
Happy Birthday my sweet little boy! You are the best and your mama loves you with all her heart!